Blues Blues and mind to free me away?

Well,my result will reveal soon... The Highest Examination in the country... at this very moment,I feel I been struck by Zues's lighting bolt, charges by the hell fire and knock by two heavy weight boxer... oh gosh... in conclusion,My Journey of getting to college or universities may end here..
Sigh...

I do not regret for the things that i chose to not get it.. So,I gotta get some work on hand...a second job, While surfing the net today,i found myself a jobs which my basic sector..Customer service..so,i would like to give fate and myself a chance... hoping to get the job and work.

Studies is important,Finally realizing why my old man would get a stroke to make me as educated as he could..But, do my future really tied to those innocent yet recyclable paper??? To many people ,Certificate from the learning sector seem to be a high reputation for certain people to face the society... My Parents would high die the price and make sure they learn to made and earn money to kept the family in a part..

Money, The root of evil.... created mayhem, created rat race,created abuse, money seem so pure and innocent but..... it had taken over our mind bit by bit and kill humanity little by little.. I close my eyes and try to see my future.. do you know what i saw???

People walking around with full stacked, I MEAN FULL STACKED of Money.. What the lord have happen to them... Money buy humanity?

Yes, I need to have a sum of amount but not to the limit that i would bring a briefcase of cash to a mall.. it would be idiot...

My Biggest Concern............. Can Money buys my love away?? Can Money washes our sweet memories? i know..... i fail this exam right from the start.. Say or point out my stupidity ...... Whatever i did... i never betray my humanity.. I never make life gone... I just live my life in a easier and less complete way....

Baby Baby Baby oh...

Hahaha.. yup.. is Justin Bieber's song..too bored while awake midnight.. haha..
So,i was ill last night,a sore throat and a bad cough eventually.. clinic was like my only destination... after a visit to the docs.. i went back to the room and my Wife was like 'No..no..You cant eat this and You Can eat that' And note my mobile like prevention... But, i know she is caring, haha.. what to do? She is mine what.. hahaha..

Well,so how is anything and everything?? Is the havoc gone miserable and hell gets loose? haha...
As for me...this is was took place..My Events:

a) Jason finally get married on 14/2/2011
b)Carter and Viven engaged on 14/4/2011
c)My career step further..
d)My Wife getting cuter and cuter.. haha...my [傻婆]

Valentines was on last night.. but due to my unhealthy conditions..we was unable to celebrates but i still made her 'Le-Marie' for breakfast,which is a couple breakfast popular in germany during the 60th century..and we have our quick lunch at kopitiam...I found something like damn strange... even the people hussle around in the sea of busy social... My Wife was getting cuter and more kawaii-er... that smile and that look.. its kills...

My chinese new year?? Best Part..
haha... FINALLY... I bought my FIRST Girlfriend home and everybody look at me like..'He is a big boy now'..hahaha.. My Grandpa and Grandma seem warmly and harmonyly to accept her to be apart of our family.. Even my uncle gave me a thumbs up and a bright green light... Even sometime she like very noisy but.... she look cute with that... hahaha.. sometimes when it struck me by standing light speed... i miss the hugs... sometimes felt like' tell me Babay, You miss me too..I m gonna crazzy over you'.... hey,i m not mad... Just having those couple moments ok... haha......

Valentines doesn't mean buying each other precious gifts... sometimes the heart matter...
'I Love You'
look simple but dazzle...

What if?

What if the sun rise and i m gone?
You may find me at the point where the sea meet the sun.

What if the hard point and i am gone?
You may find me in the closet where we have our first hug.

What if it never feel good and i am gone?
Find me at a place where barks and howls are.

What if one lost trust and i am gone?
Find me at an empty valley with only a lamp on.

What if tears are on and I am gone?
Find me beside a old piano which i played a song.

What if pain are long and i am gone?
Play that song and let it born.

What if ........ I never return?
Find me under a giant oak tree where my grave lays alongs.

Author: Benjamin Brown VII

The Empty Space

Once there is a space we call society,a place where people communicate and where the social development take place,

Once there is a place we call family,a place where the people that love you spend the most with you and care nor hug you when u needed support the most,

Once there is a place we call school,a harmony place that we meet our mates and learn how to shape ourselves to get social material etc like money.

Once there is a place we call memory,an infinity place where the unimaginable things take place and the six sense of human take place,is either missing people,thinking future or remembering anniversaries.

Once there is a place call hugs,a warmth place which calm anyone in tears or pain in it.. plain but magical.

Once there is a place we call it heart,a good machine to keep all the memories playback like it just happen three second before and make you a good playout slideshow.

But,

There is a place in me where i use it to kept you alive,which come which unlimited space to store our good memories and hug which run our sour sweet moments,This is the place i put you in... is warmth and is only just for you.. i call the a place where 'I Love You' is just me love you.... a place in my heart which every morning i awake to realize... I m Yours.. no matter what the weather that struck between us.. just want you to know... I Love You from the bottom of this place..That is my Heart <3

Jason and me

I no longer feel that i m still the same guy like the one in form 5,no longer have the spirit to fight for the honour and began worry about my future somehow.. exam result gonna be on air soon.. and maybe this is the turn point in my life.. Many people say that i am a clever boy,a very very focuzise thinker.But soon this will come to an end.. and my Journey of studying stops here.

Because i don't want her to be sad,there is great stupid things that boys do just like my friend Jason and I do.. to protect the heart we both guard we decided to fail our stpm and that make us stay here with them.. I remember that i said i'll be here for here forever,no matter who judges us...no matter how people said we were.. we will be quiet..

Jason is the guy that i meet when we both having the same tutor. He is a good dude and have Quasilla as his girlfriend, We been friend for 4 years. even he is more clever than me. He never reshine the cleverness and always he is a good boyfriend... To him, Loving someone is a promise of life, to me,Loving someone is unfairly judgeable... I did many stupid stuff to make my girl happy.. and Jason.. he donated half of his kidney to his girlfriend which make me salute him. STPM is our chance to enrol to universities.. but also make us dump our love behind.. so,after a long while of consideration... We decided to FAIL it.

I don't know what my future brings..but i never regret.. Judge me by my action,Judge me by my selfishness,Judge me by my reckless behaviour.... I knew myself better.... even i maybe single future... But i never regret of making it in love..

I don't care what other said, I don't care the Negative revelation,I don't worry bout ungetting happiness... I made this Decision because...............................................................................................I Know Miracle stand by us.






"Live with unregretable noble heartmanships'
"Devour smile inchangable tears"

Enough is never enough

Lately... many crazy thing had happened.. there were smile maker and tears leaking ones.. but this is life and we know is normal.. 20 years standing on the earth.. i came out a conclusion for life.. My life were all in concept..the vice versa,the black and white.. defending myself from the deepest pain.. sometime,i will sit on my bed and think... what if...what if this never happen..wonder what had take place.. Maybe..just maybe... i never end up like me... People always think that they are good when they care for other,they seem to act selfish even they know that..'One word is a million pain'. When You talk or ask about certain things.. will you ever thought how the other may feel?? have you ever feel that even that person laugh..but inside,he or she felt bad?

So,What is enough?
Enough is a type of feeling etc feel much plenty or full but... Who could tell me they are really enough..when you wants for money,the temptation will never enough,when you want a happy ending,every hard work will never be enough,when u are hunger for bed to get a sweet dream,9 hour of sleep is never enough...

Have You ever think like me?
I spend almost 24 hour thinking and looking for ways and method.. i May go crazy thinking of how to get the knowledge i want,plan my own way,looking for possible income generator, Many people may ask me,what is the point that you think bout your future where you don't even know your future?? but, Mind to answer me which come first? Future or tomorow? The next hour is gonna be your future,

Rich Daddy Poor Daddy.
This is my knowledge,my taecher and my motivater... The book which make me a money controller.. People ask me.. Hey NK,how come you can spend like rm500 without any sense of worry?? this is because i know my entre and outpost.. and i like to save in various way.. I never ever run out of cash.. because i have my emergency saving..and thank to Robert,the author of 'RICH DADDY POOR DADDY' I m darn wise with greenies.. so,in finance i m stable.

My Cupid
Love and Affection.. wait a minute.. i m not talking bout lust.. do turn negative error... in love life.. i m the side whom don't really like to spend my time in arguements,my way is tolerate.. so,if my She get double.. i must be just simple or just in win win situation.. and the most important thing gotta be a shaper.. Be a good listener to her when she is sad,Be a good advisor when she needs,{if you are as plump as me} be a good punching bag when she get pressurise..hahaha....get know of the girl's need and you never get a red card for sure. Just remember {R-C-L-T}Respect, Care, Love loyal and Trust.. Girl's heart aint toying stuff.

Fate and Hope
to be happy is just easy.. Trust your fate and make hope for people..

New year.. But I still Hers.

Hi~Hi... 2011.. the year of rabbit.. some say 2012 is nearer.. hahaha.. but for me.. is not bout the time,ain't bout the days and not even minutes count.. My love story getting more and more fantastic.. Is like a couple week to chinese lunar year..is time for???
ANGPAO!

Haha..
looking back at 2010... the most happy events??? yup.. I meet my lovely and cutely naughty girlfriend who i loved to have her as 'MINE' one day...haha.. I m a happy yet blissful guy now... My Baby is having a good time battling Mrs Manimangai.. my Beascious MUET teacher..but, I be standing next to her.. helping and guiding, Loving and caring,Respecting and missing her always.. urmmm... describe her??

She is too good to be any word in the dictionary... Because... Cupid sent her to me.. is 'Mine'!
Well.. in 2011 i wishes sucess and harmonies to every pair every family and may mr rabbit bless us all...





Best wishes from: Mr and Future Mrs Brown.. Muaaaacks!! <3