The Raining Bus Stop

Is raining...I run in to get some shelter middle of the busy street,Car honking and engines buzzing... and after a while.. a girl knock on me accidentally.. and i turn over,she was like a naive little girl whom keep on apologizing and i said is ok,i forgive you..By the way,is raining and it is slippery.. so,i know she does not do that on any many purpose.

Is been awhile both of us share the bus stop and suddenly she seem sort of curious about me and trying to know me a bit more..and we chat for a while.. as soon the bus arrived,she ask me for my mobile number and we exchange our contact.. I keep on thinking bout her ever since then..

After a warmth shower, i was having my good warm coffee beside my balcony and out of the blue.. My phone buzz... is a message.. 'Hey,Mr bus stop, Are you home?'.. and that message make my heart pump,my breathing faster and overjoyed.. and i think i like her..After that we text each other every day to chat what a extraordinary day we have been through..

As time flies... is been a year we been best friend and we can talk about just anything..she thought me how to survive my work and i teachs her how to maintain a healthy life..During the old days,i woke up and my main objective is to survive for coming back to bed... but for now, after the arm pass 6pm.. i hold my phone and like a kid... i waiting for a buzz on my phone.

On night,she suddenly appears on my door and is 3 am.. she seem sad and soaked wet..after a treat of warm coffee,she told me she is force to marry a guy that her parents love..and i find no sense.. why your parents love him and you gotta be the item in the barter system to be traded off?? so,my shoulder was on borrowed that night. By the next morning..she had dissappear.

This dissappear make me nervous because after awhile we seem like totally lost contact and no longer receive text from her.. so i decided to look for her by the address she left me.. and when i got to there.. they say she was gone.. adding to my confuse..i return to my apartments..finger cross..i hope you are fine.. that's my little pray..

During on drizzle raining night,my bell were press and she appears from no where.. and this time, i told her how worry i am after she dissappear and it make me realized that.. i love you..that what i told her.. and after a warmth bath and coffee,here she is.. in a safe place acciently called 'my hugs'..and i told her that whatever happen,i will never let you go again.. but...when dawn break through..she is missing.. and she left me a surprise note:

'Dear Mr Bus stop,

Thank you for your warmth caring and bath... i make me so warm and i was totally fallen in love with you,but i have to go... we do not belong together,harvest you love into someone who more worthed.. I know this may break you heart, forgive me... because i really love you,i would no longer hide this secret... to meet me again.. please come to the bus stop where we meet on 18 of august sharp at 7 pm... i be there.

From,Zoey.

So,at that time,i meet her there.. at the bus stop where we first met.. there she is.. waiting to meet me and i was with my buddies.. so,after we chat... she left and my buddies ask me who am i talking to as that shruk them cold... and i say it was my beloved girl and told them the detail.. they become more terified and told me that the girl i meet is not a human as accident occur in the bus stop 3 years back.. and it was raining and a girl is died here.. suddenly... i realise.... I Fell in Love with Ghost.... but it awesome although it was scary..

#A tender teared from Mr Bus stop's diaries.... A True BeAr Wangler collection.

Angel Heart

The clock is ticking... every second every minute just passed in front of my eyes...they say Rain is leaving to some where i will never find her again. My thought were playing with me... I m in sober and confused... maybe this is goodbye... or maybe this is the end... and i stand up and stroll around the near shop until i stood in front the bridal shop.... Suddenly i realize.. and i run toward the railway station and pray hard 'Oh God,please let me to fight for this' and without realizing.. a car is coming.. it hits me,but i was even strong to stand back on my foot to continue my journey..... Many people was shock to see me running in havoc and finally i reach the station..

Although i am here but i feel no sense of her.. and two guards were grabbing me and lending me a support.. but, so soon.. i pass out and when i awake.. i was admitted to the hospital.. and beside me was nobody.. so,after a full recovery.. i make my move.. getting all sources to find my way to her,I even called the radio station to seek for her.. but she never replied.. It look like i m late...I had miss out my love..

After half year,after my critical search and investigation... finally..i give in... I return home today as usual... starting to look at our photo album,flashing back our memories bit by bit..and heartbreak hit me deep... i was a walking zombie.. is hard to forget her and the memory that once brighten my life...

One day while i was walking near the bridal shop... i have sudden strong feeling she is nearby.. and i saw her photo... she was.... she was.... married.... and i walk in to the shop to have some detail about her... and with the complete set of detail... I found her was living opposite my house and i call her on the phone to make a date with her,just a normal date... and she agreed...

Sitting at the coffee shop,with a warmth cup of latte... we chat much... much enough to know she is Rain's twin sister,so... i ask her to bring me to Rain,after a long begging she agree to bring me to her sister..and she took me to a home where i meet Rain.. and when Rain see me she dashed into the house and it kills me because i know she hate me and i love her...

Day by Day,i went to her house and sat on the foyer to tell her what i knew i was wrong and i really need her to be back in my life so i can be happy in my wonderland...i had company her by a door in our way,i make her cake on her birthday and send her rose on valentine.. and i learn all the italian food that she love to eat.. i proof 'i love you' by action because action speaks louder than words. so.. this had become my hobby,that is to regain her confident to love me..

Is december,is snowing and i made her some warth soup so she wont be cold and finally on the 23rd of december,she open the door and tell me that she found herself do not love me like how she does last time,she hope we can be friends.. and after a certain time she said if one day she saw an angel...that is the day miracle happen where we can be together again.... so,i know that is not going to be truth... and i sat on the stair in front her door and my tears drop while she goes in to the warmth house... i cried that night...


*This story could not continue because This boy had died on the night of christmas... paramedic said he died because he did not eat and he was chilled to death while hugging a christmas present.. on the 26th of december.. The paramedic said that the boy heart had change it form..normal heart will have a lemon pouch shape,but his heart is an angel shape.

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My Rules of being alive

Talking to one of my old friend really realize that everything and every moment we have together had become a tainted dream where some of the bad arguement and some of the sorrow we ever share had become history. A tans of history that we can never deleted it...

And some of this story take me back to my golden days,the day where i skip lesson,the moment i become less friendly and the moment where a teenager who age 17 get drunk in sober whom weep beside the street..Life is one on going magic,you never know what hits you the next minute..To be honest, i have friends,friends who help and guide me,friends whom teach me and love me and friends who appears in my life for only 5 minutes.. After involving in such uncountable events and heart breaking moments,i realized that only one thing is true.. that is no matter how wavy life gonna be,no matter how hard we felt.. Family is the shelter for us. Even your parents screams like they were the actor in SAW 2... deep in that corner.. You know..they love you is not because you are their baby or treasure.. is because you are the proof of what they had been fighting for,You are the best proof that once in this earth they had been through a love like no matter how pain it be.

Lately,i been really thinking to have my own family too.. What kind of father i will be?? what kind of husband am i?? and one day i really hope to hug my own baby in my warmth hug and tell him or her, You are Papa's most beloved treasure.. I want a wife, I want to come home and knowing someone will be there to fill up my hugs and someone needs me to care.. to be my wife,is very simple.. You need to be with me when i need you.. I am one lonely guy..and other from my girlfriend.. my friends is not more than 450...

I never believe in faith is by the universe..My fate is own my own hand.. What i want and need to have..i will fight for it if it really worthed.. I am no a perfect guy, i have my history..and to those people who love me and cares about me,Thank you.. for those who look me kinda weirdo..is ok.. I love my parents,I love my family and if my girlfriend read this, I never mention You..because you have become my family.. Behind a successful man there is a mountain of haters,behind a good family,there is a good parents..

Bear Wangler Thanks for your support.

Love at first sight?

So,is been long time i din really update my blog.. sorry..haha.. i am out to the world to seek for something that many call it as love as first sight,According to wikipedia, Love at first sight happen when you look at something for the first time in your life and you totally fall for them... like a girl whom fall in love with a nice handbag at the first glance and we can ironicly call that as love at first sight?... kinda funny example.. or when a boy sudden see a nice car and he pledge to himself to love that car forever.. another love at first sight case...

So... after i been wonder around like an idiot whom lost his soul... i find some interesting story that seem so related to my topic tonight. 'LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT'... The first story is about a pregnant mother who gonna give birth to her beloved baby soon, and for those wonderland teenager.. remember,babies were not deliver by big stupid bird... no Jumbo story... haha... In the maternity emergency room,after a painful struggle of i duno how long is the duration,when the baby was deliver to his mother warmth hug while it still cover with placenta and you see the mother who almost have her life on the line smile to the baby.. that is the very moment where love at first sight take place... the treasure in every mother's heart... the baby or i call it.. the being whom live with her since the last nine month.. This is the first time where love at first sight take place.

After the next 18 years,when the baby become a grown adolesent... he went to college and attended as much course that available..as the cupid flies.. he shot him an arrow.. and he meet a girl who seem so nice,so pretty and so almost perfect in one of his lecture hall.. so,as soon the magic spark and both of them seem so perfect in each other eyes even tsunami hits a thousand time or earthquake about 11.9 they seem unseparatable.....so,this is another encounter during my research of love at first sight.

since that..the boy whom study and gradute from college when to work in a firm and he save an amount of money which then use for proposing his 4 years girlfriend to marry him.. He decided to build and continue the cycle of his generations... by the next month,This happy couple live happily under one roof where the husband work and come home by every clicking of 5 o'clock and hug his wife by the waist and whisper in her ear 'Baby,you are so beautiful, I regret to have you this late and i hope to have you earlier so,my life be better with you'..And he change to a superman who armed with apron and pan by his hand to prepare a good and healthy for his wife...after getting the rice,he feeds his wife because this is one of his way to make her pampered.. One day,His wife told him that she is pregnant and they went through the maternity lesson together, a good husband, a nice wife, whom is welcoming this little baby... Sometimes he put his ear onto the tummy to chat with his baby, and tell his wife she is beautiful, the most beautiful woman in the entire world is those who pregnant... and is time for labour,this very dedicated husband went in to the maternity room and holds her arms, support her and practice make perfect, they perform well with every step they been taught in the maternity lesson and the baby was deliver to this world safely and happily, when this couple hug their son for the first time,and this first time,they fall in love with their son... and This is my greatest research of all... and this is another encouter with my topic,

Love at first sight by, BeAr Wangler (BW)

I am not an Option

Is her again...the girl that i like during the dance class,looking at her,my heartbeat begin to beat faster even i want to look at her,i make sure i look at the other angle and glanced at her once in a while.. She is so cute and pretty.. gosh..





One saturday,after our normal routines dance lesson,my friend walk over and ask for her mobile number and handed the number to me,But maybe i am too nervous,i sent the wrong text to the wrong number...And i was very down that incident happen,i really hope to know her and have a chance to be with her,when i was almost hopeless... One day,she walk over after class and ask me for my mobile number,and i realize that is my chances.. and so we move on from friends to best friend and generally we start to date....





We spend most of our time by texting each other and helping each other on the homework eventhough i am smart... i play stupid in front of her..we have many happy and sweet time together,Sometimes she invites me to her house to teach her some folio assignment and some mathematics problems..





As soon we finishs our exam,We go out for our first date, that is spending 9 buck tto watch a funny cartoon,and in that theather with that movie include the cold situation, this is the first time i hold her hand in mine. and i look at her and said "can i hold your hand forever?".. And she smiled... By end of september,Our final year exam arrive and we when to a nearby library to do revision and research... On one rainy afternoon while we were doing research,out of blue.. i accidentally hold her waist and turn her around.. looking at her face that full of shyness... The kissing sense hit me... and yes... that library was our first kiss palour...





And this life continues 3 years... until he appears.... Kent,a boy who she knew when she was working part time in the restaurant,They seem to be more and more close and i know that they are working together so they may have more topic to talk about..... after 2 month, i realized... i been left out, she no longer treat me as a her beloved,she no longer remember my birthday...





19 september 2009.... this is the night that i would never forget,the most unforgetable birthday present... She asked me to wait for her at the park and according to her, she need to tell me something...After i reached there,she hold his hand and tell me "I am sorry,i think i no longer love you,For me,Kent is more important and You dont seem to suit me"... then they walk away.... I was in pain.. I sat on the floor whole night non stop crying while looking at our sweet photo.. Ever since that,every tuesday seem like tearsday to me, i cried and i torture myself to the extreme,to make sure i sleep at nite, i consume a couple can of alcohol and i went to bed.. no longer feel the pain because is that torturing... I went to her work place and hide under behind the car to see her.. Everytime i look at them, my heart getting more and more pain... This is the memory that i would never erase from my mind... this is my history in love...





Because i love so much, I pain so deep....


I put her as my Goal,but she make me an option...


I will never let myself to get in such pain anymore...

Now,is either You love me or You lose me....





#a teared Piece from BeAr Wangler dark side love history.

My Three~~Two~~One

Well, Something hit japan hard on 11 on march... it leave them a great impact but not Godzilla,even though i m not a japanese.. i feel so sad because.. Japan was once my second home, Some of my buddy and pretties were from japan, Kyoto,Tokyo and Banho...When i think bout Japan, sure do... anime as i was an Anime fan too.. *high five* if u are one.. hahaha... and what i like about japan is the old and history street.. if you are planing for a visit.. go Wakaishima street... Under route number 34.. a big oak tree.. you see i sign my name there. but after this disaster... that oak tree maybe gone.. God Bless Japan. Support Japan,please help the children.. Japan the best!

So,Lately i been busy working.. Driving my car all day to the bank and many official areas, and sorry that i do not update my blog so often..*Sorry kay*... What surprise me is that day when i park my car and walk into the state post office, someone call me from behind..

"Hey, Are You Bear Wangler??? i was like errrm.. yes, can i help u?' and she ask for a photograph and zap.. she walk away happily... lol......"

Working sure very tough.. but i tried my best to go home to sip on the very warmth of my mother secret recipe soup.. Mum,You're the best!

So, Finally... i figure out what is one, two, three for me.. This evening when spending some lovely time with my Baby,she help me to figure out that when we listen to some good tracks from our mobile phone on my bed.. and hugging her near my heart.. i know why Cupid shoot us... Because she is only one that in my life that i saw my future in her eyes... and is good to have her... to calm a beast like me.. haha... Sometimes, love does'nt matter how hard he work or how she looks... it only need the bond in the heart... so... my this is my concept.

One= One headphone that make we smile.

Two= Two people lying on the bed and looking into each other's eyes

Three= The simple word 'I LOVE YOU" which i can say in 3 second but prove with a life time

I found this simple happiness is more precious from how many Louis Vuition bag or how many carat diamond you buy, sometimes.... Happiness is so simple till it do not cost a penny... And when a boy say i love you, he gonna show... This is my current life addiction... Love simple but let the price be extraordinary.

Love, BeAr Wangler

The Tears of a Missing Heart Holder

He is busy again... tonight he need to company his clients to discuss about some proposal thing.. He forget that today is our anniversary.. our 3 years anniversary... After he get employ by the company... i felt they kidnap my boyfriend away... Tonight is the 186 night i have to pass alone.. sometimes, i think maybe i should let him go... or maybe our relationship start at the wrong time.. This is our house, those happy couple photo on the wall... I wish.. to have him with me now... I need a hug, a warmth hug that comfort my lonely soul... In other point of view.. Yes, He is doing his responsible to take care me... He work to make our wedding party more delight, what he did is a insurance for our future.. But, Maybe... I am selfish.. even i pray so he can have another job which buy us more time together...

When i was looking through the photo we take during the past, I saw a very happy and blissful me... In his hug is the best comfort God ever made me... Even i keep myself as busy as possible.. i still miss him... 24 hour a days,but it look like 2 hour is our time... even sometimes he fell asleep because he is too exhausted... What should i do?? this is the option that i choose... He had sacrifice a lot of better life chances to be with me.. I am just an ordinary girl, But why he did all the sacrifices.. does it worth? what if one day i dump him alone? He will be very heart broken... I want to support him and i want to be the woman behind all his success... but.. now, we are having some hard time...

It make me more worry when my friends asked me whether do i have faith in him?? What happen he have another girlfriend outside? what if he don't wish to be with me.... Everyone said he is a nice guy.. a good candidate for potential husband..

Maybe i over thought... He is struggling outside.. he want to make me happy, he want to make me his wife, he want to have a family with me... so... He have to work hard... but, maybe is my selfishness... i Really need him now... I miss him a lot... I hope he may come back to me one day... You must remember, when you finish working and you felt tired.. there is someone at home.. waiting for you to have dinner with and awaits your hugs....

Dear, I miss You

#a little wish from a lonely girl whom want her boyfriend to get home to company her...

Is Never To Late

There is my goddess,the girl whom taking Venurable arts stream.. i like her very much... Look at her watery eyes,her charming smile and the gentle voice...I wish to ask her out for a date to the university prom night.. So, i take my guts and try to fight my way to her, and after a struggle...finally.. We both share a bond now... a friendship... so,we text each other every night and slowly..as time goes by, i found myself love her and i do not dare to told her..afraid being turn over.. sighs.... so, I just be there when she need protection the most.

One sunny evening.. She told me that she had a fall on someone...someone that so near with me,that is Benny.. My bests friend... and she ask me for helping her to be his.. but... did her know i m crying while i texting? At that night,when night falls... i barely sleep... memories of our happy moment had damage its replay button as those memories kept coming back.. what should i do? Lord... Why this turn out like this... so, I help them to get to the phrase of 'In a Relationship with'.. and i am a solo hurt patient... I hold this pain deep inside even it kills me when she told me how she love him and what she love about him... But, Baby,do you know,Your happiness is killing me deep.. and trying to conclude my life? even i am in such situation... I did my best to make her happy and wish them have a blissful life...

During the summer break, An accident happened... They went to the beach and unfortunately.. she was knock by a car when she is crossing the road after obtaining a bottle of carbonated drink for him.. and she is admitted to the emergency room..After a cycle of treatment.. Docter and Surgeon acknowledge us.. she had lose her sight and also damage one of her kidney after the traumatic incident.. When Benny knows... we both share the biggest pain together... We know we both love her... and she is in comma... is hard to get the perfect donor who really save her and suit her characteristics.... So, I call out Benny and we had a big dicussion...and we come to a conclusion...

After 3 month, she finally awake and fully healed after 2 major surgeries.. Benny took her home and they celebrate her healthy life again.. so, they happy love story ccontinue.... Until one day... She realize someone is missing..... is me who missing and she sent me a folder of message and scolding me for leaving her even she treated me as best friend...She is in sober, she cried hardly and seek for me among the ocean of people..

One day, Benny took her to a old folk house.. and he told her i was inside waiting to meet her... as soon she walk in... she saw a guy who sitting on his wheel chair and blind who look so familiar... When Benny walk in... He told her that 3 month back... i call him out that night... we discuss how to save her and i made this move.... I donated my eyes and kidney to her... i never regret, on my wheel chair,i reach out to her and touch her face.... i realized she is crying.... and she asked me,why would i do that? why i save her? and she still thinks i leave her alone..... She seek for my apologize... Then, I told her.... Even i loses my eyes and kidney.. even it may took my life... i still gonna save you...because... I love you and i know you love benny ..so, i kept this secret to myself.. i buried this secret to myself.... and Is Never to Late to let You know.. i still love you but.. I do not wish you to suffer anymore pains... so, Please take Benny's hand and cherish this love... Because i am stupid.... I love You in my heart.

#a teared piece from a blind man old diary....'is never to late to do something,it just need hardwork and belief.'

La'ex Memories

Lately... i find i hard for me to sleep in the night, so i drove my car out midnight to see those scenery that normal people would never realized... and I found no matter how busy a street be during the day,when night falls... the busy day street found its emptyness and loneliness during the night.. It come to a point where i stop my car and i step into a bus stand and exprience the loneliness in the night.. The cold breeze and the silence surrounding told me a story...

The bus stop which student,senior citizen and passer-by use in the day may seem so solid.. but.. without the bus.. the bus stop seem bored and pain... The street's light... they shines the road and it make my shadow visible on the road... the street.... have it own story to tell.. and is 2 am... i was sitting in the bus stop to think about this life... given by her 19 years and 9 months ago... what i did in the past and i bring me back to my memories.... I see a slide show of my own life... i see the pain i cause and the joy i bring.. Is cold out here.. this moment make me desires for my mother's hug and my father smile... those warmth feeling that make me grown... I miss my grandpa and my grandma.. even they seem old but... they were my most treasure parents.. and however... there is a part of my memories that brings me back where my ex-girlfriend slap me... the pain moment and every bad memories... i know this is the time... i should dump them in the road... i shall leave them here.. and carries my happy times with me... And i meet two new friends in this road.. one is a telephone stand and the other is the tree.. I am so grateful to them, one stay there to help when accidents occur and the other help to produce oxygen and shelter to the needs... Somehow, i asked myself... 'Why should i be so greedy??' "why should i be so reckless bout the things that i must get in my life?'......... I should live a life where i can help the needs and love those i already have.... This night and this very one road teaches me to be grateful of what i have and what i don't... I name this road... My la'ex memories.... In Old english mean... Let's be grateful tonight.

My Life if i am single again...

Well, does anyone or only me who thinks what happen if this and that happen like this? what if i become single again, and how my life turn out if i still single... Oh well... I think.. is gonna be like this is i stay single... a rewind for my life.

If i stay single at 2010 september, i never meet my current girlfriend.. and i study and pack nice for my exams.. after that,I gonna work at that shop and get my paid as usual.. and exprience the pain of tuesday.. then moving on... i have a good time with my family.. pass my chinese new year with those dudes and stand alone or wear 'I m proud to be single' on valentine.. after my result were open.. i may enrolling into my dream university and choosing a course for my career.. getting a homestay and getting more new mates and friends at the university.. or fall in love with a senior.. lol.. just kidding.. Thats is maybe my life will be if i am single...

For now... i have 3 major goal to achieve which yet to come.. i need to make my career that can support a family not a girlfriend and i need to get myself 2 cars and a house... and the last one .. I need to get a owner for my house and also a owner who sleeps beside me on bed... My Life at this point.. i am struggling hard.. but, i know.. what i fight for now... is worthed in future... so, to me now, if my girlfriend can't withstand the challenges.. i would never mind that she dump me,But of course i Love her... Because... I am not those guy who looking for a girlfriend... I am those guy who is looking for a wife.. I Make myself clear here.

Ps: lately... My girlfriend acknowledge me, there is a fan page of my blog on facebook... i don't know who do that page.. But, I really thanks him/her for giving me this honour.. Thank You, Mr Dedicater.. Have a nice day.