I M NO LONGER A Kiddo! :(

This have been spreading wild fire lately... God..... The equlibrium of Ying and Yang is the contra of my lately life.. lol... My sister is getting married..my Brother is getting two more dude to join this crazy family.. And me?? Having plans on the calender.. hahaha.. Well.I m no longer boy boy..Define me as a man.. haha..Is going to the tail of the year.. and My Baby is getting cuter and cuter,We are getting close,warmer amd more loving each day... Haha..
That day when i was typing my resume to sent for a vacany.. i found myself lacky... way lacky...

This is my Resume:

Name: Aloysuis Brown Nicklausixer.
Contact number: 016-5**9****
IC number:910919-0*-****
Achievement:
PMR: full As
SPM: 8 As and a B
MUET Text writing:Band 6
Working Exprience: 2 Year

Enrolments:
1) Hold the tittle of 'CHAMPION' for public speaking for 2 year. 2009/2010
2)Take Part in New South Us English test for 2 Years
3) Top 5 Speaker in Kinta 2009
4) Awarded as Top Experiments student 2008
5) Qualified English Debater in 2007

Sport:
1)Ipoh International top Squash Player 2010
2) Top 3 Swimmer 2007
3) 4 Year Champion Bowling 2003-2007
5) Awarded as Courage Camper Member (gold)

Communication;
1) Able to converse in proper English, Bahasa Melayu,Mandarin,Hebrew,Korean,Porturgese, British English, Japanese, Italian, Thai, and Russian.

After this..... I felt i look like a loser..... Lame...
Hahaha.. Between.. my Love life was great in momentum... 6 year planing... we'lll getting marry on 1.9. 2017 with hope.. and.... She just amazing and amaze me alot.. wheezz!!

Love or Don't

Sometimes i really quite confused bout the word 'love'.. according to the oxford.. is a type of feeling that someone feels for the other person.. William Shakespears said that love is unwritten word of stanza.. and Abraham Lincoln said love is the true divinity of the outermost feeling.. so... what is love?
True facts bout love?
is a sea of darn good reason to love..

The side effect?
(1) You feel jealousy
(2) You tend to dream in reality
(3) You feel heart breaken when the love gone..

Many people told me that love can change the world? and i ask one simple question.. if love could changes the world.. Y those idiots so happen to war? and why Bribery happens? Come on.. like Jay chou who sang love song like he been broken heart for a million times.. when you ask him bout love.. He would say: Urm.. that's is not a relative question..

If you ask me.. Hey Aloysuis, you don't fall in love? if yes,why u act so subjective to it?
Oh yes.. I fall in love and my girlfriend is better than Jay chou's one.. i aint subjective bout love... i just waanted so much to know the truth meaning of love... which i have my answer...

Love is not an element,not and bloody good concept.. is bout how you cared someone,how u have faith toward someone and how u choose to have someone...even they hurt your feelings to the worst of hell and you still love them like ditch hell moment.. You never let them slip out of you hand.. You wanted to have them in your life so much to witness the memorable moments in your life.. just like the other day.. I went to meet my girlfriend at nite of a time duration of 30 minutes... in that 3o minutes time..that will be the bests time in my life.. even is short and it is worthed... The 30 minutes memory is some masterpieces that out bound of value.. My style of getting or loving someone is gonna be easy... make her as happy as i could..make the fantasy dream of disney back to life.. I just want my girlfriend to feel no regret for being mine.. That's me.. in love... sometimes is like you love and cherish me now or just look at me while i walk away.. You can way away from me.. but i just want you to know i'll be loving you in shadow... I m not a great lover... I will do anything just to preserve my memory... I am a kind of person where when i know i in love that need me to choose between my future or my love.. without a good split second.. i will give up my future for someone i loved.. Because I am Aloysuis..The second in Brown family... Not a fighter but i fight for what i love.

My night with with big brother.. Man's talk..

Two cup of warm coffee on the tablescape...
Hot vapour releasing to the air... sitting on two warm chair... My Brother.. Walter and i have some things that we talk or should i say Man's talk.. well..looking at my brother.. i really kept nothing as secret..oh well..this is our dialogue:

Walter: So.. what's up lil bro? U seem like planning somthing there..

Me: Nah.. just missing my girlfriend.. and planning for christmas stuffy big guy. haha..

Walter:If you gonna talk bout your current girlfriend, I sure support You.. Between.. How is her and did you guys had trouble??

Me: nope.. but just planning some 'wedding plan'.. haha..

Walter: Ok.. i see my little brother had grown up..hurm.. so when u decide?? And i hope you save an infinity amount of money..pss.. getting marry is not easy tho.. sure u can handle it?

Me:hope so.. Btw.. Bro,did u ever break up with ur wife before??

Walter: Yup..let's see.. about 7 times.. hahahaha... by the way.. You girlfriend is a real deal good girl.. don't let her be theirs ok?

Me: Oh Faggot.. kept that away..

Walter: Haha.. My Brother..

After chatting with him.. i receive a text..' knock knock'。。it sound like '老公，你在干嘛？‘.. haha.. yup.. is from my girlfriend.. My big Crying Baby.. Oh Gosh!!! I Love Her... Man.. I Love Her Damn Muchie!!

Support 'N' Deport

I don't know today i am lucky or the vice versa... i been accident.. a nightmare which i know i nearly get kill.. in split second... I think about her,My girlfriend...
Maybe is the life ending second.. My little pray is just hope she can get a new guy whom really treat her full-hearted,care how she felt and make a smile on her face everyday if i die and i may be relieve..
But with the blessing power,I turn out to be darn fine even my car wreck into half.. Lucky...
But as for my girlfriend.... My most precious Baby... She felt the impact so hard till it influenced the whole day mood.. while texting... i am getting more and more and more heart broken... i know she is resisting to cry.. and i reboost her at last..she cried.. good.. at least she no longer hold it in...

'Oh girl.... I know u care i know you are trying to strong... But..i know you too well'
'I know how really you worry.. And i know how heart-breaking you r'
'but i want u to know that i am ok... i just worry bout u'
'Besides.... I wont dump You alone now or later'
'Moreover..I miss you ah!'
'important gonna be'
'I LOVE YOU'

I am so lucky to have you beside me in this very turning point of life.....
Everything we have gone through gonna make us stronger..
I just dun want to see you sad..
sorry
Girl~~
But I LOve You!

A Reply to My Bei bei's Blog trouble question...

Oh stupid girl...
Just now i saw what you wrote on your blog..
I know you feel tensed up..
And u feel really tension when u have to face the studies's pressure..
But let me tell you how i feel ok?

I feel that i never even think to left you before, Unable to cheat you and hide stuff from you...
between.. I found true happiness when we were together,remember the moment we spend on my car? remember what my heart tell you?? I know, U are that worry that one day i may just dump you and walk away like i never love you before.. But if you think i m that kind of people than you are very wrong....

I just want You to remember this:
1) I wont cheat or lie on you.
2) I wont hide any things from you
3) no matter what happen.. i'll be here to care and love you.
4) You are the beholder of my heart.
5) I love you more than anything is this world..

6)After 6 years.... No matter what happen.... no matter what went wrong.. i still want you to know...




* I STILL BELONGS TO BOWIE'S ONE*
*I LOVE YOU*
*I M URS*
*<3*

On Screen: Continous Love Video.

This is our sweet dating video... Hehe

Sweet, Warm, Weird and Heart broken

Tonight.. i take her our again,yeah... finally i can see my dearest Girlfriend again..owh.. my tension solver and my angel.. so,out we head to the nightmarket.. as soon we arrive we slot in our love carrier and start walk,
Any she do some shopping.. yup..she is happy with that.. and we have our lovely evening... not soon after..the rain come and chase us away and we headed to our next destination...a 35 minutes journey to shopping mall.. The Giant, and when we walk.. i been having trouble to retain the stuff we gonna suck on..so i thought is a good idea to get a trolley...
But then i realise..... She walked away from me... because i looked odd with that..oh.. [That somehow really broke my heart which i nearly cry on the spot]... Well... we do end our night with some huggies..and the other supplementary item.. sometimes i really hope i can tell her how sad am i but.. i cant really said it because... A good boyfriend must respect and protect his beloved feeling...
Then as soon i came home.. i took my control and on my Ipod... and indugle in my moody music.. Nelly-Just a dream.. whao.. Damn Great soon.. and The Human league-My L.O.V.E really cheer me up again...
Yup.. I know... i realised this girl is the one i reluctant to dump in my life because..... I may Lost without her.... Dear,I m sorry bout my behaviour.. But i m ok... and i still love You! Really do Love You! I m Yours.

The Bear Knight-Fight for Love

Last night i really cant sleep...out of blue.. i felt my bed become as stone as rock,the blanket become as cold as ice... I sit alone on my bed watching the dark outside... this is the time i feel i m not perfect person... Despite, Local University have a space for me,but... i WILL NOT take that place because i had make up my mind that i must stay back to protect and warm her up when she is cold... Call me stupid or whatsoever...But i'll be here, I dont care how the world see me, i Just want you to know who i am... I found you.. The moment of truth in my life... The missing brick of my heart...
U perfect me....
I surrender to the faith and my destiny.. No matter how hard.. i wear my armour as strong as a knight protect his beloved.... The last 1 minute the last 1 second,my last breath,my last heartbeat.. I will still fight for Her...
I never knew.........
I never Knew i could ever love someone to this limit....
To make her happy...
i have reach out and done upon my own limitation....
This is me.
This is Aloysuis Brown....
A Bear who know nothing other than loving someone until his own life is nothing compare to his beloved...

The Silence

Today was quite a day for me.. she is not happy today and it ruins my feelings too.. i become extremely moody.. i aint know what to do at this time..whenever i asked her.. she say she is fine.. But do her know deep inside one of my organ is bleeding? hope she know..
I am really lost now.. i hate to be in this stage.. i m sad,full of question and unsolve... i cant even get one good listenner.. i got many issues... i got many worries.. and the one i miss is in bad mood...
i sat on my bed silently.. watching the night sky.. now.. i begin to worry about her,
she face so much tension and stresses and she don't know how to surpress them.. What kind of boyfriend am i? i don't know... by now i begin to scare to welcome my future.. is with her or -out her.. no ones know what may happen tomorow.. no one know when fate end.. but i know i put 100% true feelings in this.. hoping it really workout if not...

This will be the last time i fall in love......if this fail...... Aloysuis will go under the silence..

Nine days in November--- No, I can't

November the nineth.. Oh gosh..today i barely feel my limbs were working... and i still attend to school.. because i know her would be lonely and scare.. no matter how bad condition i in,I try not to let her know..because i know she may worry and she also may sad.. To me, even i make everyone sad i just dun want her to be sad... because my heart does pain when she put a ill feel looks on..
Yesterday we went for a trip to sungkai.. hot-spring famously.. yup..we have a lot of fun.. and she was an angel from above.. we does enjoy.. the water the air plus the love and joy.. in conclusion... 'DArN EnJoy'... Haha... She is not in happy mood today.. because some of her papers aren't well, so,she kinda moody.. and my heart really plunged and breaks.. Dear Dear.. Please smile back soon..
Lately...
Many things come to my mind.. i have change my mind setting... I have my plans.. After my exam..i gonna stay back at ipoh and work.. i am so happy and willing to wait for her even is a risky things.. but you never know what is in your future..
if She see this...
I Just want you to know... No matter how stupid you be,no matter what happen,even the moon and the sea dries or we face extinction on 2012.. My Promise to You is,I be here.. to live with you,hold you hand when you needed..giving all the happiness to you in every angle of every sense.. even that time.. You no longer mine.. but this heart and love of mine never dies.. because.. You teach me bout happiness,bout true love,bout making you my best Baby, But too bad... You never ever teach me how to forget you..and the things happens between us is something i could never forget...No, I Can't.. because i realize.......... I have fall in Love with You deeper than i thought..

November 6th.. One memorable night with my Wife

Yesterday..my friend truely give me a great pain by whacking the golf ball to my leg... lol... and chemical reaction.. I sprain my leg..and i told this to my Wife after her tuition.. she seem sad which i know she is worry and heart pain pain aready..Then today we go shopping at giant and parade.. like normal sweet couple.. i hug her on the waist..'Deep in my heart...'Oh boy..i found my true love.. looking at her cutie charming look.. Bop Bop Bop.. heartbeat increase.. Looking through her eyes.. i felt she seem sad.. i just felt it when my sixth sense start to react.. (>.<) Trust me.. I see my future in her eyes...She just making my heartbeat go *bop* faster....搞到我超想吻她..after the snacky dinner.. we go for a night ride..
Until one of our friend's house area.. the lucky friend we always meet..Miss Huey Yee..lol.... in a narrow road..i stop my car.. and pushes my arm rest backward and we sat closer... this is the 5th time i hug my Baby...and magic second take place.. we have our truly nature sweet couples kisses...i can feel the gentle lips of hers on mine...I also promise her.. Whatever happen...我永远也会留在她的身边，因为我爱你。。。。我的老婆仔。。。One memorable night with my Wife

Our 2 month anniversary... muaaackss~~

Time really flies... We been dating for two month.. how lucky me, uumm?? how should i start this leh.. ok..last night i bought her to met my family.. Yup.. I did.. And my mum said she look so decent and cute when she shy..haha.. By cousins?? 4 star for rating... You see.. Even my family say so.. She must be great right? I tell You..She is the most expensive yet Priceless Baby i ever had.. MUaaaacks..Baby... haha.[Shy shy ady o]..hahaha..anyway..she is really an angel.. very very good.. unconciously... i fall deeper in love with her day by day.. I know.. this is the most greatest things happened to me.. to others..she may seem ordinary.. but for me.. I see the unique in her,the understandings and her way of loving me... I know well she is a good girl..or should i say a amazing one?? gonna have a trip with her soon.. YEAH~~ Love to spend time with my Sweet Dear....

>>>>I KNOW I Am NOT ALONE>>>>>>
>>>>>BECAUSE IN MY 19TH YEARS OLD LIFE>>>>>
>>>>>>I HAVE FOUND YOU>>>>>>
>>>>>>>THE UNIQUE AND SPECIAL>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>THE ONE AND ONLY GIRL IN MY LIFE>>>>>
>>>>>>BOWIE NG>>>I LOVE YOU>>>> <<>>

Destiny calls...Home,sorry...i never return to You

After signing that paperwork,i understand well i will never go back to there.. I m staying back for one very special person, a girl who make my mind wander around.. Don't worry.. i m still ok.. Dear, please don't said you are stupid ok?? You are better than some people i know.. I know your potential..You can get nice result... i know You are struggling hard,Tell you.. i m not clever nor genius.. i m just a guy who read and practise alot... Dear, Your smile... That hug.... is enough to make me stay.. Hardly to dump you aside... Dont worry bout me....Just having you by my side... i felt i m lucky enough to share happiness and blessing with You... My Day is not the same...One smile.. Colour my dull life. I Love You <3

Future soon,Turning point of life... My Life was awesomely great!

Sitting on the couch,holding my handphone and having my laptop..Feeling i m so lucky now,I have my education in form 6th,having a world class sweet girlfriend,passing through everyday as a normal guy.. Having time to revise with my girlfriend at the library,enjoying the moment of shangri-la.. Finally,arrival of my new life..
Is gonna be a blessing for that.Thanks Lord.

Thinking my future,what's is gonna be?
So,i think after my exam,i gonna get some handy mandy going on..stable financially,earning rm400 from ebay was not enough.. come to realizing that... oh lame.. I gonna be on job,and try to get myself a new car... As a man.. i really need planing.. house gonna be later aiming.. As my girlfriend?? well, i decided not to return london and work here as waiting her for end her uniform life, then most likely to shoot ourselves to university..[Most likely]...and future planing is on the way... Wow.. Last night i was attending my Dear dear's father bought early birthday..Uncle was a nice man,from the discussion,i acknowledge that he is humourous,out going man and most likely to have interest in travel and sports..As Aunty,a good and understanding mother,well going person.. and her brother..seem to addicted to sea-food such as clams..good good.. just my beachy style.. My Dear?? describe full [WORLD CLASS BEAUTY,SMILE SWEETER THAN BEYONCE,BEHAVE CUTE GREATER THAN ASHLEY TISDALE][MY WORLD CLASS DEAR DEAR].

Exam is near for my Dear,is not near..is tomorow... lol..all the best to her,don't stress yourself.. i know You can do it.. You are the best.... Good Luck,Dear... Luck Lady gonna visit you... i Believe she will.. Love ya.. :*

22 October,Windy... rain... old wound..

Friday... right after we having revision at Tun Razak Library..we went for a lunch at oldtown kopitiam... Table no.3.. wee order a milkshake,a ice lemon tea,a cole chocolate beverages and just a dish of the famous rendang rice and a toast.. we ate it happily..like normal couple.. just looking at her smile and shy face..it just another my day..Even the weather is blassting outside,is a sunny day in mine.. (^_^)...
haha... We go for a blistering ride after that..suddenly she ask me bout my past love life.. which i catergorise them as >Deadly Wound<... the wound and those matter that i don't hope to bring it out again... it reminds me the pain,the sorrow and the unpleasent past i had,looking at my past... i am really full of exprience that no one even know..i all most date every kind of girls.. from A-Z..give me that life.. is totally crap and wrap me up right away..such a failure me.. like Lincoln said 'Well,i am full of protective armour,but my weak spot still reveals'...who don't have past? but mind is slightly worst... I know what it feels like when Your lover betray you,i know what it feels like when your family don't stand with you..i know what life gonna be if you make other your goal,but they just treat you like option.. I AM ONCE A DELETABLE OPTION, Trying my best to be a good boyfriend..which success and Luck Lady never by me...My Birthday wish.... i hope i will never be left alone anymore, Can i make friends with happiness and laughter?? can tears and sorrow left me alone? well... God knows, Gonna attend my beloved Dear father's birthday tomorow.. Interesting.. I only understand a simple concept in love, Love is like cooking a pot of soup..the more it cook,the more tastier it gets.. The more understanding and care it involve,the more stronger the bond of two individual will be.... I do well in everything... But.... LOVE... Gosh... >_<

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After 49 days 14 hour and 6 minutes... This is our current love story... Love her so muchies muchies.
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Lately...

Lately.. She is not very happy seem to me,maybe exam is around the corner which contribute to the factor.. I totally down with her,we were stacked around,Parents and teachers.. will this love episode of my going to be end? Dear,I duno what can i do...Why happen? y u look so tensed and stress and sad? bear bear is here ar... i dun want you sad alone or face trouble alone,please share it ok... and i will help you to solve it in either ways, Making breakfast for you is trying to make you happy,doing dumb and silly thing to see you smile again... Dear,whatever i m here... The bear bear missing You on the bamboo tree.. (Y_Y)

18 october,Muet Day,Hectic teacher's devours...

Well,I have my MUET speaking test today...Whiee...Lucky lady was on my side,the question was very very unexpected yet simple... so,Lord,i hope u give me the green light for it.. after the sweaty bullet form war.. i went home,
I pick up her today,which i did everyday... But,she had a hard time in school.. Teachers have making us a glamourous news... Upper and Lower sixth coupling.. What is wrong is that?? did we influence our studies? no right.. Did we call each other sweet name in the school? no right? so what's is wrong with you guys,We couple then our problem... why? you all jealous izzit because you husband and wife din treat you like good?

Please moron and retarded Teacher,Mind your 'Kampung' style mind problem..

Our photo... haha... Happy always

hahaha... Our Love story start sweetly on September the 1st 2010~~ I Love You!

9th of October,My Blessing

Last night would be one of the night i would like to keep in my memory,I know and realize One thing.. I would get another Good,Charming and cute girlfriend like the One i have now.. All the hope her smile brings me and all the happiness she bring into my life,all gonna be my valuable memories... so,I guess I don't need to change my love... My Life suck without You.. My Dear,don't worry...I will not dump you,even after having my result,my destination would not be University,i be here working and wait for You!


My conclusion?? Yeah~~~~ I Love You, My Dear!

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10.30pm..1st october,night... The pathway

Everyone will ask and wonder about what this photo is about..let me tell you all..
This is a normal corridor at the morning,But,When at night...there was a story behind it..
There was a boy who don't like to share his problem and pain with other,because hw found after his form 5 life..A tragedy land on him and he was in deep and wounded heavily pain,Without his parents and family to support him,He got no one to share his problem... One night,He feel so frust and decide to end his 17 years life,and he come to this pathway... sitting alone and cry,wonder why his life was so hard... Why others seem to be so happy?? Is this Karma?? sitting on the steps,he thought of ways to die,but fail to... so,whenever he is sadd or feel heart-pain,he be there midnight by 2am..sitting alone to think... as time pass,he begin to grow and think maturely... continuing his studies,and maybe,just maybe... after the pain he gone through.. God say is enough...
In the fall of 2010... He found someone new,someone who calms him,and make him feel he is loved again...but... she take him as a brother,unconciously... he is in love with her..but due to the past the boy have,he felt shame to tell her that he like her... so,The stupid boy had decided to love her in a oldest ways,protect and care in silence... The stupid boy feel happy when the girl happy.. doing stupid thing such as walking outside the girl's class with hope she can see him.. stupid right?? (>o<).... september the 1st,the girl just inplied that she is in love,which make the boy more scared... in that boy mind,He thinks..'This is over,she is in loved,and that guy may make her happy... But i still like u,as long u need me,i'll be there'...But,Tornado hits him... they both share the same feeling... and when they were together,they share the joy together.... in the boy's heart...'No matter how long this love may happen,no matter what future bring us,no matter when the death want to bring life away,no matter what disaster landed on him... This is the last time to fall in love and care the girl as good as possible.... Tonight,he return to the pathway... the boy sit there and think... Life may not always be as good as we expected..but there is a positive reason why God land us here...And the Stupid Guy was now typing this story of his in his blog... The Stupid Guy was ME....

My 宝贝's birthday.

On the 29th of september... The world most amazing girl,That right.. My Girlfriend celebrates her birthday with me,I don't even sleep on that night,at 3am... this is the first time,i try to make a perfect cake for her birthday..As i know,She love chocolates and she cant eat almond or nut due to some unpleasent effects.. so,i try out the solo chocolate recipe.. As i doing it,Many thing comes to my mind..The first time we held hand,her first sweet laugh,she naive cute look,the moments that bring us together.. is a sweet memory... at 6.45am..after 10 minutes rest,i go to school.... hahaha... She may think i forget is her birthday... and i have a whole stack of plans behind... An limited Edition watch from LG's Digital 2003 anniversary.. i get it,Iss come with a bear carton..as i remember,she like soft teddy bears,but she worry it may lost.. so,If this is in the watch,she may never lost it...after school...i send her home and dashed home,with only 4 hour left,i do another cake,and is a success one... when the clock ticked 5.45pm,I bought her to dine in at Moven Peak,Greentown area... she order a Capree with a love foam.. and we eat and have our very own sweet time in the bine....haha..at last,i call the waiter to bring out a slices of cake and she eat it and smiling sweetly..I WONT EVER IGNORE THAT SMILE...IT MAKE ME MORE IN LOVE.... We have a wonderful and loving Night,by the time pass 12am... We had been dating for one month,Thank U, My Love for bringing smiles,joys and happiness to my Life,
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I LOVE YOU,Yup,U got that..I Love YOU!

Mid autumn festivals with Grands

Haha.. Is mid autumn festival tonight,I return to my grandma's house,after my grandparents eat their dinner,We sit near the balcony and chit chat,joke and just enjoy the beautiful moony night,With Grandfather's favourite oo long tea.. we chat about their young times,and my current relationship.. As time past,is 9 o clock at night,Grandpa call me for a chess game, Finally i won grandpa.. the first time.. then when grandpa and grandma fall asleep,I was sitting alone with some tea left and looking at the moon,I feel i miss her again... then i bought a few of candle.. sit on the sandy floor,i created a 'Candle Love' with express my love and miss toward her...My Dear,Happy Mid Autumn Festival,Sarangheyo...我爱你

Wednesday,Cloudy,2:19pm 22 september 2010

Today return from school,i feel very dissapointed..
I sent my Dear home,and when arrive she quickly get down from the car,is truelly she forget about what gonna happen... (T^T)...
And as she go down,i really she heard that.. ar....
Is gonna be a month after we date each other,and i am happy bout that..Just want to tell her those word,face to face, Dear.. _ _,_,_,_ _,_,_!
another frustating day from school... But my Muey subject dissapointed me so much.. Teacher,what you really expect?? why my writing cannot ever get 60/60 de... always 56/60 55/60 or 50/60.. and each time word increase from 800 to 900,800 to 990 and today 1300.. But why still band 5???!!! i need Band 6 so much... Gawd...
Dear,You know what? i miss you ler.. like last nite,out of blue i duno why i seem so werzzing...I just want you to know i wont tell my love to you with words.. i Rather prove it in action... at school,i will look at You as my junior because i don't hope to mixed up between studies and love,Is hard to contrl,because when i get free,i tend to miss You.. I always worry you face problem,I will always ask because i m so worry that You get troubled up and sad... like what the stupid meeting... I dun care what and how i will be,I just worry about you.. Because... yes,u know it... because You are the One i care and i need and i love... ask me a grazilion times... My answer will still the same,That is, I Love You!~

我和我宝贝快乐时光。。

Firstly,Thanks to her for company me for my birthday,We enjoy very much at jusco,when eathing and watching Resident Evil: Afterlife.. She wear a white blouse and a short,Trust me SHE WAS VERY AWESOME AND I LOVE HER VERY VERY MUCHIE MUCHIE.. DEAR,YOU REALLY MAKE MY LIFE HAPPIER AND MORE HOPEFUL.. I LOVE AND MISS YOU ALWAYS,和你在一起真的很开心，很快乐还有很满足。。。宝贝，你知道吗?你让我知道‘幸福’ 是什麽感觉的。。。谢谢你。。疼死你了。。老婆仔，我爱你！！

Saturday,September 18.. 10.07pm

Today was so happy,
After my Dear's class,we both go for a date and having meal in Kfc,haha..we snap some photos too.. haha.. and she ate a Zinger meal and mashed potato.. after that we go wondering the area in my car,chatting happily and of course,sweetly... She is the girl who can be said Special among the extra-ordinary.. Dear,I miss you,

And when i reach home,I really dying in missing her...
In the dark room,I think,what happen if we broke up.. >.<

But,I don't know what happen,i cry in my room,
The reason I cry is not that i m worry that i will heart break again,I worry what happen if she is alone...She may cry and heart break,she will be alone when she is in trouble,Who will be there when she need help or support? who will be there when she cry? and I m so worry that she may get in danger when she go home alone,or when she walk home... and She so careless and forgetful,if we break up,who will remind her and guide her?

I maybe a mix between european and chinese,but..I m not those who don't respect girls,I never play with love... Dear,I cant promise how long that i will be here because if i die early,that will be a lie,I promise,I will never hide any secret from you,never cheat you,now and always You are the One i would only love..


----If really one day,we no longer in love... I swear,I will never love again,because girls is many,but a sweet and lovely girl like you is Only one... and You are only the One Bowie I would never forget that i m happy to love You----

16th September 11:24pm

Finally,I meet My Angel's family,Her mum look so alike with my mum.. haha..this really make me feel warmth,But unfortunately,I did not have the chances to meet uncle yet,And her brother,sister and her sister's boyfriend were those jokable person,very out-going and smile often.Whezz... Thanks.
Although i was silent during the gathering,my main purpose is to know the in social-life character,to easy blend in.. Even so,I really have fun with you guys....

Now bout my Angel.
I been missing her and i meet her just now.. don't know why,i feel stable when with her.. and she may smile and laugh,but i really hope she is happy.. Today our friend assk me,why i like her?

Why love people must have reason one??
I love her because i have feeling to her adn she was my everything..
awaiting for this weekend, Dear, if u are not happy,please do tell me... I promise that i never argue,What you do is right. Just don't know why... You are the keys to me heart..

I Love You! Sweet heart!

당신을 사랑합니다

오늘은 내가 왜 당신을 ... 더 놓치지 모르겠 하늘을 다시 보면서 내가 더 당신처럼 내가 당신에 대해 진지한에 대한 우리의 관계를 오전 시간은 내가 진짜와 나 진지하게 돌봐 싶었 증명시기 바랍니다 얘기하고자 한 천사를 사랑하는,보고 싶을 달콤한 만드는 당신은 당신을 존중도 날 사랑에 빠진하게 마지막 여자처럼 당신을 사랑합니다 ...
내 인생에 당신을 갖는 기적, 당신 애인이 축복했다가 ... 희망은 우리가 함께 영원히과 사랑, 매번 너는 나를 웃게 해주는 것입니다 ..그리고 우리는 곧 만나기로, 난 그렇게뿐만 아니라 언니와 동생지만, 모든 가족을 만나 .. 기대 오전거야 친애하는, 당신은 최고의 선물 내 인생에 일어날 수 있습니다 ..... 아주 아주 아주 아주 많이 ~ 당신이 그리워!

Where is my mood? where is my Smile?

My birthday is around the corner,But... Why am i moody? my ideal birthday present was something every family have, A family photo... i choose to fake my smile,because i dun want people around me to worry, when they ask,what u want for birthday? i hardly say it out.. and this evening,I lock myself alone away from my relatives,my best family photo is only my imagination... My only happy moments is my six years old cake photo.. Now,my mood really gone,
Dear,I miss you...

1pm,13 September,2o1o

Just came out from bath..refreshing,with a glass of water...sitting on a chair with my laptop on the balcony.. is time i m blogging..haha.. Viewing at a great scenery,a field and some green moutain and a big simple and cheerful blue sky..And bidding for a special item for a special person in your life would never as happy as this,What my life really about?
Flashing back my past just like reading a unfinished story book,At the age of 15,is my life first turning point,at the age of 16,i begin to argue and disobey my parents,and the next year, i m totally a different guy,
18 years old,I really a devil among the worst nightmare,i tried to enter Segi university with my result... all As and my history B... finally,i thought i made it,But,the course i m taking is not available anymore,Depressed and back to ipoh,My Grandpa said there is a school sent me a letter for Form 6th intake,To be honest..I hate to wear uniform.... atlast,the stupid Aloysuis enters form 6th in a very crappy school..since that,i force myself to read more and learn more even think crtically..As times flies,Senior years.. and i was always wondering...who and what kind of gangster or bad girls will be my junior???pathetic... hahaha
Is end of June and we receive news that all seniors gotta wear like senior 'citizen' to welcome those lower sixth... as those form is getting ready,Two more senior and i was selected to be the GL,Group Leader to moniter the whole intake...
As the clock tick 8am.. Junior barge in... lol... i use the word barge in.. then out of the sea of crowded Junior,someone caught my eyes... simple yet interesting.. nope,if you want me to define it in old age english, it will be the simplixity among the extraordinary... Trust me, She is simple perfect...unmarkable... givinng 100% mark is just poinless... define her in a word in dictionary? haha.. SWEET. no one,really no one could step in to me memory and said 'I LIVE HERE NOW' other than her,
Who is Her? You ask? MY SWEET ANGEL,
Can I have Her too? You ask? Yes,Before that,U gotta make sure i m dead.

~~~~-----I am Not a fighter,But,I FIGHT FOR WHAT I LOVE---~~~~

12:11am,September 13,2010

Tonight was a unforgetable night,is so simple.. a simple yet memorable night.. While i was typing this,i m sitting on my bed and near my window,Tonight is so cloudy,but duno why there is a moon in my heart,and duno why i no longer lonely.
6 days from now is my 19th turning point..God,You really treat me good,You really loves me,I thanks for the great present.. You have given me an angel for my birthday,This is the best thing that ever happen to me.. I don't know why she was all my Source,
I be confident to have Her,
I be Happy when with Her,
My idea come when I think of Her,
All moral support will be there when She is there,
I m so cheer up when She smile,
I could never get sad when She was 360' around me,
who is She? She is my sun when i need hope,She is my moon when i m lonely and She was my Angel when i m down..
the moment i found myself missing her.. 'POP' my phone ring...

text message "Honey"
I was smiling... to Reply 'Yes Dear?'

but at a night like this,the missing feeling become stronger,i can hardly sleep... On my Blackberry, is a bunch of saved message
Trust me when i read those message is a 100% gurantee that my dream was sweeter than ever....

Thank You Sweetie for making my life wonderful!

@@@@@@@THE BEAST HAD FOUND HIS ANGEL@@@@@@@

Family gathering at my house

Is had been decade since I eat dinner with my whole family.. But my father,brothers and sister were not here.. My Grandpa and grandma,they were the one i love the most.. remember when i naughty,my grandma use to scold and my grandpa sure make me smile back with some sweets and ice-cream,But now,he is old.. and i really like to spend time with him.
After dinner,grandpa and i were sitting outside chatting bout my life and his youg ages life... Is just like a dream,i was on his hug yesterday and now i m taller than him..He was smoking.. and i m worry bout his health,as soon night falls,we sit down and start my grandpa favourite game,Chinese chess.. As time pass,I lost.. Grandpa's skill still in a good level.
Grandpa,Thank you for caring me when my father didnt,Thanks for teaching me how to write my chinese name.. Grandpa,I Love You.. Without Your guide,i may a become a bastard now..

Grandpa was a great man,You teaches me Life was my teacher!
Grandpa,Your guide and everything You teach me,i never ever forget.
Grandpa,You will always on my mind,I m proud to be your Grandson! take care My Beloved Granfather! When i get old,i will tell the generation to come that Aloysuis Brown's Grandpa was a Noble man!

@@@The Whiteboard@@@

B.etween the beauty.
O.nly Thee who shines,
W.aking me from dream,
I.n the journey of life.
E.ternity just like Thee.

N.ever hope to awake
G.etting to treasure our time.

<3

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My Second date with My Beloved

Haha... how should I start this? A white bag,a black dress and a brown outfits just making me go.. 'Whao'.. You are pretty Dear!! today i make everyone jealous... is every boy dream come true to have a true beauty walk beside You..And You know what?? i Hold her hand during we watch movie in cinema... It quite nervous,and after all i holh her hand for the first time... I was over-helmed with fun.. L.O.L... haha.. and we walk or should i say we stroll along the shop.. behaving like normal couple.. finally,i was in love again.
Of course I knew that she was very worry bout how others would accept.. and will i be playful bout this relationship,Well,Dear,You get my answer here.. no matter how many objection,No matter how hard,i m ready to makee this relationships success,and my Parents had agree and accepted You, Dear.. no matter what past You have,No matter how worst can You be.. I wont regret that having You.. Just no 'sigh'... You are not an option,You are one of my priority.. Never ever let You down!!

My birthday is on the way soon.... My Wish is, Hope that I can see your smile always,and be with you no only to share joy and happiness,but also sorrow.. I will always make You proud,I will protect You and I will never ever let You sad!

Be wonder for sometimes,
Odd to tell You that how I feel,
When we are together,thats my happiness,
I will cherish and frozen every sweet time we have
Every promise to You...i never fail it..

if u want to know wat i mean, Just combine B,O,W,I,E and plus I Love You behind~

Meeting the Future In Laws

Tonight really is a roller-coster ride... When my girlfriend said she wants me to meet her family for the first time.. i m not scare.. but just worry bout really feelings dissolving moments... My brother said is ok.. show and be yourself.Don't be tension and stupid with those stupid idea... As for me.. I am just excited with the coming new events.. it may killing and blasting..
Meeting them is not the problem,but i just worry that they wouldn't accept our on going relationships... And how will be my in laws be?? oh.. very nervous... Dear,are you ready? i am i guess...
Haha... Tomorow is going to be our second date.. i just love being with her,is a miracle... i just love having her a along me... Having her just like havind the rainbow in my daily life... Tomorow,we going shopping,eathing,spending time together,watching movie... but i really hope to hold your hand, Dear..

anyway,
I Love You!