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So,Hi guys.. Lately, is been a life for me... I been through the good and bad in life somehow.. and there is some factor which appear in my life that i wish to thanks to.. Even i come to this world alone and cold... but their have made my life full of colours.. made me a normal happy guy who going through his twenties now..

Family,
Well i grow up in a typical chinese style village.. I had a very happy lovely pair grandparents.. My grandpa is the one who cares and love me the most. even when i was in young ages, He teaches me about life.. wake me up by 4am and bring me to a shop which he call it 'Kopitiam'.. and there is where he have his coffee with hugging me on the lap and i was still cuddling with my bolster.. My grandma, she is a good cook and i grow up with eathing the dish she cook.. my Grandma specialty.. The old style 'wallet egg' haha.. and my uncles and aunties like to hug me and play with me before my cousins are here.. and i was the king of the family.. which under the lovely care of my mother.. My mother, Even life get hard.she did not give up and love me in and out.. even she wont let me know when she is sad.. and she always put on her smile for us.. in the next couple days,she is going to england and i hope she will be fine there, Even i grow up in the way that she plan, but she always be there to love and support me, Mother, sorry being rebel during my teens days. now... This is the family that make me realize what my life really about..'Harmony'.

Bowie.

She is my girlfriend whom seem ordinary and she always have the 'Girl next door' look... Even she said she is not perfect and often said that she is a bad girlfriend.. but in my heart, no one is perfect, She is 99.9% perfectly send to me and we have pass through the life as couple for half year, she is a good candidate to be a wife.. having all the good point and charater as a wife figure.. yes, i will never told her that i love her forever, i love her every ten year.. and the ten years can be continuos.. i do not say i love you forever because if one day i die or unlucky.. i walk away from life.. i May make her the woerld saddest girl.. and i find my happiness in her.

Friends,

Friends come and go like merry go round, but i have a bunch of special friends that support me no matter how.. and they were all from different country and race..whatever we do, we don in groups, no matter how hard life be, no matter how crazy we are... we are the best of the buddies... Carter, Wai mun, Wai Keong, Mindy, Jimmy, Jerome, Mawter, Carrie and much more.. is been 10 years we all are bound.. and guys.. is quite crazy.. but i love you all.. * Cheers* for friendship!!

So, this is my latest updates.... Thank to You all... You made Aloysuis Brown excist... I love You guys and for my mum and my girlfriend.. from the deep of my heart.. I LoVe You!

I Honour You as My Wife till Death Drag us Apart

The alarm gone off again... Mark,The policeman run toward his superior office... when he arrive with grasping air which hardly getting into his lungs.. He report to the detective,Mr Zack... 'is him again... he appears again.. this time is the grocery stall and we have two victim... and both of them were stabbed in the chest.. and Zack rushed to the field and try his best toi get the proof that may close this 8 years murder case.. but.. like always.. he come back to the station with full dissapointment as there is no evidences left... while sitting on his working desk... He try to figure out what is this murderer try to play..

Looking at the murderer's profile... Nicholas Polwe, age 25, working as a therapist before he start to commit murder 8 years ago.. Nicholas.. A therapist who work with his wife and owns a clinic near road 14.. His wife.. Amber Tayson..24.. who work as the nurse in his clinic before she died 8 years ago in a bulgary whish take place in their clinic... According to the report,is May 5th,early morning at 9.30pm.. a group of 9 people who charged into the shop and start the robbery which armed with ak47 and shotgun.. it only take 15 minutes to rob the clinic... and Nicholas's wife was raped and shot in the head which making it a fast fatal and Nicholas was shot near the lungs... however,he survive through it.

After the surgery.. Nicholas have to face the lost of his carreer and his wife... January 2nd,Nicholas started to lost control of himself and started to act weird.. He was been sue by his nieghbour for 4 times and end up in the mental ward on february the 8th.. But Nicholas make a full recover after a year and he waas discharged from the mental ward.. but he was still on medical treatment....According to the paperworks. Nicholas is what they call multi depress condition people which can be trigger by the past...

May 12..The first time where murderer happens is in an apartment, Nicholas had been trigger and he lost control of himself.. he get a chopping knife and run to his neighbour apartment where he stab the man 8 times in the chest,the woman 2 times and kill thier daughter who is 14 by kick her to death... Since then... Zack Markship had been assign to follow the case and on April 18... a dead body was found in the park where the man was stab in the neck 19 times which almost lost his head... and the murder weapon is a chopping knife... This time.. warrents had been out... 'Nicholas was a dangerous man'... but however... this is not the end..

After 5 years... the case had increase to 6 where all victim were male and found dead with a sum of wound that made by a chopping knife and Zack was almost blank and there seem that there is not way to stop this kiling and as days when by... it begins to make the whole investigation team to give up on the case... On the summer night of june 14... a dead body was found in front of the police department where it was killed by the same method but the different things is nicholas left the police a note... it say..

'I know you guys are having a great pain to nail me down and when i was writing this letter,i was clear and i wish you all a good luck... the next 48 hour.... there will be another dead body will be found.. From: N.'

As soon Zack receive the note.. he order the police department to get nicholas before it is too late... but, as soon the next 48 hour past.... The police department found 2 dead body whioch hanging up on the city hall... and it make a total 9 murder case..... in 8 years.. Nicholas had killed 11 people... and it was a teriffying news to hit the town..so.. Zack is the one who got the blame.. and he was doing what he could to put an end for all this murder...

As Zack was sipping the last drip of his coffee... The policeman found a dead body in a clinic where Nicholas used to work and the Body was been identified as Nicholas Polwe.. as Zack arrive at the scene... He found a note beside Nicholas's body which entitled to Zack the detective.... as soon Zack open the envelope.. he saw a wedding ring and a wedding card.. Zack know Nicholas motive behind this murdering case...

This is what written on the note that Nicholas wrote to Zack

'Detective Zack, as soon you find this letter.. I think i am no longer here to commit another murder case which frusted you... is all happened since the death of my wife 8 years ago... I had carriedd out an investigate to find out who and where those armed robber who kill my wife and i had my revenge to kill all of them... On the day when they rob my clinic... I was up to some event.. I was preparing to bring my wife to a dinner and to celebrate our anniversary by make her marry me again... the ring that you found is the ring i hope to give it to my wife 8 years ago.. because i love my wife... because they end the life which suppose to be happy ever after... i had decided to kill them to protect my death wife honour..'

#To protect the honour and your love ones.. sometimes... life is not that important anymore... if that was stupid... then Nicholas choose to die protecting the love and the honour rather to live in a coward way... The Owes.... I honour you as my wife till death drag us apart...

{BeAr Wangler}

Happy Birthday to you....

'Happy birthday to you.... happy birthday to you.... happy birthday to you.. My Baby'.. continue with a crying tone... today is your 19 birthday and i was here with the cheese cake that once you like to have on your birthday.... It reminds me alot about you... and believe it when i say i miss you...

Still remember last year,the year where we meet each other when we are working part time near the convienent store.. is kinda funny where you look so angry when i accidentally drop a can of baked bean on the floor and you scolded me with the charming voice... at first, I found you are pretty annoying.. because of the bossy look in that working uniform.. and that was our first meeting.. Gosh.. is one outstanding one...

Did you remember that on the last day of working where you were crying near the stake of book in the very corner of the shop.. and i walked over and out of the blue i started to ask and make a laugh on your face... i told you..no matter how, i be there when you need me.. and since then we become buddies..

After exchanging our contact, we almost text each other everyday and tell each other about our days and calm each other when we were in bad day.. And during the fall,we planned to go out for a movie... it was so hilarious when we argue about what to watch.. you are going for the romantic Romeo and Juliet and i was getting my guts ready for Mission Impossible 2...but at last.. both of us when for the romantic one where we seated on F4 and you cried on my shoulder when they die..and i hug you so tight and that is the first time we gets so close.

On that winter,I invited you to my house for thanksgiving and christmas party where you were so nervous and confused what to wear and in the end... you showed up in front of my foyer with a white blouse and a long trouser and the first question you asked me' What are you laughing at?'... and we enjoyed that christmas eve night with harmony and peace...That night we have alot of wain were your face turn red and mine nose turn rudolf..And with my guts ready... i told you that i might in love with you but... you ask me to said it when i was fully concious.

Another 4 hour will be the arrival of new year... this time i was sure that i m clear and good... so i ask you again... and on that special night.. we have our first couple new year count down...Since then we were the sweetest couple in town, we make cupid proud by making those single become couples and couples become fathers and mothers...

We had a bad arguement that march... you ran out from the house with tears falling down and i chase you and hug you at the porch of your house... i held your hand... i sweared..i will never let you go.. i will respect you and make you one of the happiest lady among the 9 planet..and we have our first kiss there..and i promise myself that i would never dump you alone.. and love you down to the earth crust.

That night was a silent and cool night... and i was hungry and sick on bed.. you cried sadly and make me some food even you can fry a pouch egg.. you're checking my temperature all night long and holding my hand whispering softly to my ears about our future so i would heal and hug you again..but my ill is getting more severe and i was admitted to the hospital... Sorry i made you worry..

That morning after you had your breakfast and while you walking to the school... there was a robbery happening near the corner and shots were fired... and you are terrify,screaming and running for your life... i was just around the end.. when the robbers reverse their car... they run my baby over... they end you life.... do they realized you mean the whole world to me.... and i was unable to rescue you..I held your hand in mine... and i said.. Oh God, Please live her.. I beg for Your Mercy... and as soon we arrive to the emergency room.. You hold me close... Whispering in a dying tone...'Dear, i am sorry that i could not make it.. but..... this is the present that i bought for you... happy birthday...' And that last breath... you dump me alone in sorrows... My Heart was breaking... i hug your cold body and scream for help but... the docters was unable to have you back........

'Even My heart break and shattered to small pieces... i still miss and love you with these pieces'

in a crying tone.... This boy sat near the girl's grave to celebrate her birthday... he misses her alot... because of twisted fate... his love had left him memories and every year..he came to his beloved grave to celebrate her birthday and chat with her so.. their happy memories will be alive again...

>Bear Wangler<

I am still the Luckiest girl...

I was sitting under the trees and i look up upon the wide big blue sky.. just wonder how big is the world outside,i was born and grow up here... My mum, who is a teacher in a local kindergarden teacher and my dad was a worker who work for the logistics company...and i just turn 17 three days ago.. yes.. my parents celebrate my birthday and i receive tans of wishing on my facebook and mt twitter.. but there is a special one that i hope it not just a sincere friendship wish..

So, He is Adam... we went to the same school this fall, he was in artical class while i was taking my music class... quite often we bums into each other in the cafeteria in our school.. i was falling deep for him.. People said 'Falling from a high tower is never as pain as falling in love'... even i was in love in him, i never have a chance to tell him that i .... him... maybe i was born with natural shyness...

As school end, while i was packing my bag and i saw him outside my lecture hall,so.. i walked out and ask him what can i help? and he smile and turn away... Did he just smile at me? Gawd... i almost faint... and one day.. i ask my mum about boys,date and having a relationship which trigger my mum anger and she scream and scolded me seem i was have a F+ for my examination... She said we should never date at this early stage of life.. And the stories goes.. She nagged me for a good hour... And she eventually told my dad bout this.. and worst still my dad thought i was getting horny..... Oh... Mess up....

That day was raining, Adam was soaking wet and stands in front of my balcony and when i open the window.. he said he had looking and secretly having feeling towards me and now he hope we can sparks something good out of the soaking situation..and i agree without acknowledging my parents.. and the coming years,he treated me as well as he can, he cook for me even he is not good at that,he make me smile when i was crying and plans a beautiful birthday party for me... at this moment of life, i thought i was the luckiest girl that Good ever see since he created human.

One day, when i come home, my mum was throwing some love letters where she discover when she clean my room and in a harsh voice,she scolded me but this time she was scolding me like i was pregnant and ready to labour without her permission to have sex... and When my dad come home,the arguement and scolding get even worst... is like world war 5 under alien invasion... and the day after tomorow,they had made up their mind.. they are going to move to the sub town where i will never see Adam again.. And i was force to leave..

I ran to Adam's house and told him about this then this is the first time i see him cry..with his stubborn behaviour, He take me to my parents and ask for a blessing which turn up to be a fight... and with force... i was been move to the sub town... but Adam never give up... every sunday..he take a bus to a eathing place which name 'Al-Migo' where we meet to lesser our missing sorrows... and this continue for 5 years.... and he was getting weaker and weaker..i know he is tired,but he still want to visit me as often as he can.. and my heart breaks... every night.. i said my little pray to the lord to make him stronger....

One day, is a raining morning where i was date to meet him at Al-Migo and he did not appear after six hour... and i was shock and worry so i run away from home and took a bus to visit him at the old hometown where my sweet memories take place....but... he had move... with tears soaked my face.. i went home and i wait everyday until 15 of march...

15 of March... i wake up and i collect the newspaper from the front porch where i accidentally glance the first page.. it was bolded 'Adam's Said I Love You'..and i pack my thing and took a bus to the venue... as soon i arrived, i saw many of our high school friend whom dress in black and white and i saw his parents and my tears was dropping as soon i saw the grave which crave.. Adam Mccupid 1992-2010.... four minute later,my parents arrive and i was so sad that i hug his grave and poiting my finger to them and said 'this is what you all made,all we want is your blessing..all we wants is to have each other but because you all said we are not fit,this happened'.. is was a nightmare of heart break to see your loved ones leave you alone.... Adam's mum said he had an accident when he tried to locate me and when he have my address,he took a bus to visit me but he meet an accident where he coma for 4 years and as soon he awake,he ran out from the hospital and while he cross the road,he was hit by a lorry.. and he hold his last breath to ask someone to tell me,that Adam love Zaciet....and he pass away while holding the last love letter i sent to him... and i was late..... this is the moment where i gone out of control.. I whisper beside his grave.... 'I was here now Adam... i will never dump you but....you left me alone..'

Here am i... sitting under the tree..lookin upon the wide blue sky and wonder who... just who can bring Adam back to me... because..... I Miss him and the missing will always reminds me.... There is someone whom love me always like Adam.. I still once the Luckiest girl that loved by Adam.

Bear Wanglers lastest Night love story......

Baby..Where Are You?

Here we are again... He was cooling down in the study room while i am taking my deep breath outside the balcony... this balcony used to belong to a sweet and happy couple whom cuddle on the bench.. under the romantic sunsets and counting star together on this very bench where i am sitting.. Lately.. we seem to argue alot.. He look different from the person i met 3 years ago... while thinking and enjoying the air.. i pull out a photo album from the book shelf.. on the front page...'Our Love Seeds'..but why this very sweet love turn sour after some times... as i was thinking... Tears wet my cheeks...

We seem to be so close but our heart seem so far apart..i decided to let memories cheer me up.. as i close my eyes... i saw him in the library where i met him and fall in love with him... that smile...a normal smile where seem ordinary to others but it really brighten my days with hope.. and i open my eyes going through the first page of the photo album... on the top left hand corner... is our first photo session where i force him to give me a big hug in the public,as i glance through... The bottom picture remind me that was the first time he kiss me on my cheek during christmas eve.. it sooth me a little..

After looking through a couple page of the album... I couldn't help myself where i put the album back to the shelf and ran to the study room where he is standing near the window.. without a word... i hug him from behind... whispered beside him...'Dear,i miss you'...and he turn around and held my hand where he seek for my forgiveness... and i cried in the warmth hug of his....

He took me to the balcony where we sit and talk about what happen lately around us... and work make him stress up.. i know i shall show him that he always have my support..no matter how.. i realized we do need each other...

But soon after that he start anothher arguement again... and he drove out from the house and leave me behind... with a shattered heart..i sat on the door step witha bottle of whiskey and looking at the clock as every minute past by... Yes.... I need you now... is a quarter after one.. i m a little drunk and i need you now.. soon after that i sleep off....

When i awake..is 4am in the morning... where i was still crying... with my pajamas on.. i went out to the street and look for you... I was wandering the town asking people around me to bring you back to me... i was holding our photo album and this journey continue.. i walk down that road.... Baby,where are you... come back to me... i was standing near the traffic and screaming so you could heard me.. until a point where i was exhausted and dirty... and you do not turn up... You promise me that you never dump me alone...please fulfill your promise... I know i was childish sometimes..but i was wrong... my only wish now is to have you back...

Finally realize..... You are no longer here... but i still miss you and love you as you were here...

~A teared piece from a girl diaries where she still looking around for her boyfriend even he is no longer here...... Sometimes..we do not really see the value of someone...but...when they is gone.. tears will no longer help.. Cherish the one you love without regreting.......

A BeAr Wangler love story..

The Raining Bus Stop

Is raining...I run in to get some shelter middle of the busy street,Car honking and engines buzzing... and after a while.. a girl knock on me accidentally.. and i turn over,she was like a naive little girl whom keep on apologizing and i said is ok,i forgive you..By the way,is raining and it is slippery.. so,i know she does not do that on any many purpose.

Is been awhile both of us share the bus stop and suddenly she seem sort of curious about me and trying to know me a bit more..and we chat for a while.. as soon the bus arrived,she ask me for my mobile number and we exchange our contact.. I keep on thinking bout her ever since then..

After a warmth shower, i was having my good warm coffee beside my balcony and out of the blue.. My phone buzz... is a message.. 'Hey,Mr bus stop, Are you home?'.. and that message make my heart pump,my breathing faster and overjoyed.. and i think i like her..After that we text each other every day to chat what a extraordinary day we have been through..

As time flies... is been a year we been best friend and we can talk about just anything..she thought me how to survive my work and i teachs her how to maintain a healthy life..During the old days,i woke up and my main objective is to survive for coming back to bed... but for now, after the arm pass 6pm.. i hold my phone and like a kid... i waiting for a buzz on my phone.

On night,she suddenly appears on my door and is 3 am.. she seem sad and soaked wet..after a treat of warm coffee,she told me she is force to marry a guy that her parents love..and i find no sense.. why your parents love him and you gotta be the item in the barter system to be traded off?? so,my shoulder was on borrowed that night. By the next morning..she had dissappear.

This dissappear make me nervous because after awhile we seem like totally lost contact and no longer receive text from her.. so i decided to look for her by the address she left me.. and when i got to there.. they say she was gone.. adding to my confuse..i return to my apartments..finger cross..i hope you are fine.. that's my little pray..

During on drizzle raining night,my bell were press and she appears from no where.. and this time, i told her how worry i am after she dissappear and it make me realized that.. i love you..that what i told her.. and after a warmth bath and coffee,here she is.. in a safe place acciently called 'my hugs'..and i told her that whatever happen,i will never let you go again.. but...when dawn break through..she is missing.. and she left me a surprise note:

'Dear Mr Bus stop,

Thank you for your warmth caring and bath... i make me so warm and i was totally fallen in love with you,but i have to go... we do not belong together,harvest you love into someone who more worthed.. I know this may break you heart, forgive me... because i really love you,i would no longer hide this secret... to meet me again.. please come to the bus stop where we meet on 18 of august sharp at 7 pm... i be there.

From,Zoey.

So,at that time,i meet her there.. at the bus stop where we first met.. there she is.. waiting to meet me and i was with my buddies.. so,after we chat... she left and my buddies ask me who am i talking to as that shruk them cold... and i say it was my beloved girl and told them the detail.. they become more terified and told me that the girl i meet is not a human as accident occur in the bus stop 3 years back.. and it was raining and a girl is died here.. suddenly... i realise.... I Fell in Love with Ghost.... but it awesome although it was scary..

#A tender teared from Mr Bus stop's diaries.... A True BeAr Wangler collection.

Angel Heart

The clock is ticking... every second every minute just passed in front of my eyes...they say Rain is leaving to some where i will never find her again. My thought were playing with me... I m in sober and confused... maybe this is goodbye... or maybe this is the end... and i stand up and stroll around the near shop until i stood in front the bridal shop.... Suddenly i realize.. and i run toward the railway station and pray hard 'Oh God,please let me to fight for this' and without realizing.. a car is coming.. it hits me,but i was even strong to stand back on my foot to continue my journey..... Many people was shock to see me running in havoc and finally i reach the station..

Although i am here but i feel no sense of her.. and two guards were grabbing me and lending me a support.. but, so soon.. i pass out and when i awake.. i was admitted to the hospital.. and beside me was nobody.. so,after a full recovery.. i make my move.. getting all sources to find my way to her,I even called the radio station to seek for her.. but she never replied.. It look like i m late...I had miss out my love..

After half year,after my critical search and investigation... finally..i give in... I return home today as usual... starting to look at our photo album,flashing back our memories bit by bit..and heartbreak hit me deep... i was a walking zombie.. is hard to forget her and the memory that once brighten my life...

One day while i was walking near the bridal shop... i have sudden strong feeling she is nearby.. and i saw her photo... she was.... she was.... married.... and i walk in to the shop to have some detail about her... and with the complete set of detail... I found her was living opposite my house and i call her on the phone to make a date with her,just a normal date... and she agreed...

Sitting at the coffee shop,with a warmth cup of latte... we chat much... much enough to know she is Rain's twin sister,so... i ask her to bring me to Rain,after a long begging she agree to bring me to her sister..and she took me to a home where i meet Rain.. and when Rain see me she dashed into the house and it kills me because i know she hate me and i love her...

Day by Day,i went to her house and sat on the foyer to tell her what i knew i was wrong and i really need her to be back in my life so i can be happy in my wonderland...i had company her by a door in our way,i make her cake on her birthday and send her rose on valentine.. and i learn all the italian food that she love to eat.. i proof 'i love you' by action because action speaks louder than words. so.. this had become my hobby,that is to regain her confident to love me..

Is december,is snowing and i made her some warth soup so she wont be cold and finally on the 23rd of december,she open the door and tell me that she found herself do not love me like how she does last time,she hope we can be friends.. and after a certain time she said if one day she saw an angel...that is the day miracle happen where we can be together again.... so,i know that is not going to be truth... and i sat on the stair in front her door and my tears drop while she goes in to the warmth house... i cried that night...


*This story could not continue because This boy had died on the night of christmas... paramedic said he died because he did not eat and he was chilled to death while hugging a christmas present.. on the 26th of december.. The paramedic said that the boy heart had change it form..normal heart will have a lemon pouch shape,but his heart is an angel shape.

BeAr Wangler Real life love story collection.