Just be friends

All we gotta do is just be friends,that summer you and i was supposed to enter the same university,but,maybe fate twist us.. we end up locating in the same lecture hall with you sitting next to me,i admit silently... i think i fall in love with you,still fresh in memories... you ask for my name and my cell phone number so we can each other.. :)

After several meet ups, You told me you love him..the him of never me.. And i smile with a cut in the heart.. i should tell you i like you in the first place, its time to say good bye to you... i surfer these pain because i knew i never own the story that i pray to be in... :'(

During that fall, You ask me to company you, and beside the the poles under the blue umbrella, a special between you and me... You seek for a place to weep.. and my shoulder is up for that...wondering to hug you... but i never do so.... I knew you was in pain too.. I love you and you love him...
is Graduation day.... is also a day in my diary which i noted as hurting... Me, You and him...I saw where this heading too... i know my night pray do not carry me to a place where you seem perfectly match... and i know.... i know.... ALL WE GOTTA DO IS........... JUST BE FRIENDS.

#this is a piece from his diary....

Sparks

Tonight i was really in a surpress mood... i found i did nothing good, and whatever i did it seem like nothing, i mean like trash... no value, even a piece of trash is more valuable... I know that if you cant study hard your life some how or rather is gonna be hardly sustain.. because of this fact, I keep telling my girlfriend whom studying in the pre University to get her head on and study for better future, but my advise is fully wasted.. LET ME REPEAT..WASTED!...ok ok.. fine.. then When i told her that i am trying to enrol in a college to enchance my study and hope it may make my life atleast better.. and she gone frenzy insane and thinking that i m going to get someone new.. Oh My Gawd!!! GIVE ME A BREAK WILL YA!.... Think from my point of making better toward our life... and some time i really get innocently blame for nothing! You people out there, can you tell me what the big different between 2 year and 7 month... is 2 YEAR and 7 MONTH!! Why the hell she must put our love in comparison with her friends and her own sister... GIVE ME A BREAK WITH THAT! Can you think from my side?? i am just a human..... Tonight i really tired and sick of arguing... so bloody, i keep myself silent.... I need my own space... SPARKS~~!!!

Understand me?

I found it very annoying when someone who don't really know me and act really understand me, Every single behaviour of mine show you how i felt, The most simple way to understand me is through what song am i listening to from time to time.. i rarely shows how i felt.. if there is something who truelly understand me that is my cell phone, whenever and where ever i am.. i listen to music a lot.. From chinese to korean to english... from rock to medley... as long it suit my mood on this current hour.... it seem there is one song rank me comfort the most... it gonna be Epik High's One minute One second... well,i love this song a lot.
Whenever i listen to this song... all my sweet memories seem they are coming back..putting a smile on my face, those sweet memories, those person in my memories and those place reminds me bout them.. There is always someone whom know where to find me whenever i switch off my phone and when my tears were running down, the place where i found myself safe,like a child feel safe in the hug in his parents hug... This very person is my sister..and with the playing songs she know what state of mood i in.... and she know how to put a smile on my face and that is understanding... the simple concept is, You understand my songs you understand me.

Me born as Bear Wangler

You must be kinda blur or confuse about why an asian boy would call himself a bear.. well, let me explain..
'Bear Wangler'

I was born in september where summer of 1991 take place,and my sister give a my real name.. a name that been given to me based on a cruel king.. Nixolas..a king who kills his army and his beloved wife cruelly..and my first name gonna surpress my evil that is Aloysuis... so, it sound something like Aloysuis Brown Nixanders a.k.a ABN..hahaha..

After a series of parents rebelation...This young boy slowly begin to think maturely,looking everything and every single matter in different angle, My public record gonna be skipping school at 16,involved in street fight at 17 and getting into the cell for detention at 18.. at the age of 19, I begin to really get and suit myself into my life... people do say that.. U never know if you don't try.. so, i try almost every single thing.. from swimming to fighting, from A to Z, from North to South...and now... I am a adolesence, but 20 should be a man..haha...

Let me see..ermm.... I have my friends, I have my Family and I have a good Girlfriend, until now.. My life were good,and there is many things out day waiting for me to taste them.. I don't really have personalities.. I am those guys who do not like to speak unless is a must,i like to observe and resuit and my mind is thinking and spinning 24/7 .. so.. My Buddies and some of my Blog Fans call me Bear because i m quite plump..hahaha.. and soon they start calling me 'BeAr Wangler' which also mean a boy who exprience more and see life in different angle.. and That's me


Frm; BeAr Wangler

P.D.A

What a hot night.. i just came out from the chilling shower so,my hair kinda dam..so is impossible to sleep,therefore let on my laptop and sat on my bed and surf the net while i blog or facebooking...is a very usual thing for me when i on the computer and sign in to my msn, facebook, twitter,yahoo and myspace..haha..

Bringing me to tonight topic..

'Why people whom date always feel their couple arent as sweet as the other pair?' Weird right??

Do you felt the same? why? did your boyfriend or girlfriend do not kiss or hug you in public or they arent romantic enough?

Really but true..this annoyed many couple.. looking at the other pair and will you wonder why the hell my boyfriend do not hug me in public or why my girlfriend do not call me tweenky name out loud.... to me... this is what i catergorise them as {P.D.A} or :

P== Public
D==Display
A==Affection

To me is ok if you give your partner a peck of the lips once and awhile,but not GROSS kissing in front of the public.. Oh Ghezz.. return to my point.. Somehow,not all people have the same mentality to show their romantic side so easily... and nowadays people had become more materialistic... Which damn rules state that 'couple must give present to each other every big day??' Who will be that mad??? I personally see a couple whom break up because the boy unable to present or surprise the girl.... oh Gawd... Imagine this,if a girl want a new surprise everyday is ok,but what if the girl wants a Louis Vuiton bag for every breakfast??

I do not mean that is bad to be a good boyfriend... be a good and raw boyfriend,be mild and stern on the right moment... anyway, if you are dating a girl that cost your life every morning.. my best advise... Dump her or Change her... and for those who know how to use P.D.A at the right time.. keep it on and i wish you have a great and romantic lovey dovey time~

Finally.. I believe.

Many people say the more you love the more you pain.. or vice versa... Remember when you re 14 and your parents said that 'son,if you get a girlfriend at this age is equally getting yourself in trouble'..if any phrase you reminds... Haha.. well, many of my friend thinks that i m a ladies boy as i solve many of they arguements and love problem.. many think it take me a million of date and a decade of break up to be a problem solver.. but, the truth is... I do not date much.. counting up to my current relationship... is only my 3rd time.. to be a solver is easy, just be her man... i mean making up decision where she feel comfortable with.. We are man, so, be polite be good listener and be a good bed for her to say out her problem.. then u may ask,' Hey dude,What if i get mad??' My answer is keep your mouth shut relax and chill with a hack, U'll be fine then..

I remember once i argue with my beloved, at split second..i was like killing her,after a chill cool down.. i realize she is caring and my brain were thinking ways to make her happy back... MAN ARE THE MOST EGO ANIMAL HE EVER CREAT.. But if a man can put his ego away... he is a good and potential partner.. haha.. i think..

if you know korean like i do... Listen to Epik High-Pieces of You with sub on... You indulges the meaning.. haha..

Between nowadays many teenager were so indulges in ONE NIGHT STAND, PARTY TILL DAWN and ETC, My Reminder.. Please,before you do anything to damage yourself please think about the word FAMILY.

FAMILY= Father And Mother I Love You

Your mom, get pregnant for 9 freaking hell month to made you a happy harmony child as you destroy the body and love you get in 9 minutes??

Your Father, work in soaked tears and sweat to earn a bag of rice to feed the family and you thank him by partying like a hooligans???

Finally, I believe that everyone is everyone's sweetheart... No matter who you are,what race you in, which angle of life you from... There is always someone God sent to love,to honour, to respect and nevertheless to be with you always and forever..

Blues Blues and mind to free me away?

Well,my result will reveal soon... The Highest Examination in the country... at this very moment,I feel I been struck by Zues's lighting bolt, charges by the hell fire and knock by two heavy weight boxer... oh gosh... in conclusion,My Journey of getting to college or universities may end here..
Sigh...

I do not regret for the things that i chose to not get it.. So,I gotta get some work on hand...a second job, While surfing the net today,i found myself a jobs which my basic sector..Customer service..so,i would like to give fate and myself a chance... hoping to get the job and work.

Studies is important,Finally realizing why my old man would get a stroke to make me as educated as he could..But, do my future really tied to those innocent yet recyclable paper??? To many people ,Certificate from the learning sector seem to be a high reputation for certain people to face the society... My Parents would high die the price and make sure they learn to made and earn money to kept the family in a part..

Money, The root of evil.... created mayhem, created rat race,created abuse, money seem so pure and innocent but..... it had taken over our mind bit by bit and kill humanity little by little.. I close my eyes and try to see my future.. do you know what i saw???

People walking around with full stacked, I MEAN FULL STACKED of Money.. What the lord have happen to them... Money buy humanity?

Yes, I need to have a sum of amount but not to the limit that i would bring a briefcase of cash to a mall.. it would be idiot...

My Biggest Concern............. Can Money buys my love away?? Can Money washes our sweet memories? i know..... i fail this exam right from the start.. Say or point out my stupidity ...... Whatever i did... i never betray my humanity.. I never make life gone... I just live my life in a easier and less complete way....